Pictures Fade.... but you wont'

♥ Tuesday, March 30, 2010

hmmm...
after much thought,
i decided to touch on this issue,
which i know many of you are concern...
regardless it's curiosity or genuine,
i wanna say,
thanks
=))

honestly,
i didn't do well...
not up to any of your standard...

perhaps,
in many of your eyes,
i'm not the "hardworking" girl...
but i at least i know,
at least,
one person know how much effort i had put in...
and i'm really grateful to ZEAN,
who said such a really touching "speech" to me dat day,
when i hate myself for once...
=))

and peanut,
can vouch for me...
the endless night i stayed up...
into the wee hours...
how many time i feel really helpless,
solving questions i can't solve...
feel like giving up...
but peanut and zean,
gave me the spirit to carry on...

perhaps,
my matter is not right...
but all i can say is,
my hardwork don't pay...
the ending,
is way lesser than even 1/8 of what i had given in and given up...

i guess,
i'm just not cut to do what i did...
i guess,
i'm just putting on a brave front...
i know i am not strong,
but i got to be strong...
i know i am not brave,
i got to be brave...
because,
only that,
can keep me going on...
only the "happ-go-lucky" faith help me look at life brightly...

i,
don't want to be destroyed by set back...
i,
don't want to feel sad because of failure...
i,
want to keep smiling on...
i,
want to continue being the optimistic, ever cheerful girl...
and i know,
i can DO IT!!!

this time round,
i want to give it another try,
i will give it another best shot...
i hope i can succeed...
as my fren,
you will support me and help me right???
GANBATTE!!!
^_^

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
9:51 PM

♥ Sunday, March 21, 2010

记得我曾经写过类似的感想，
但，
今天重看《不良笑花》时，
看到将小花被大家误会时，
唐门却仍然相信她，
守护在她身旁时，
不禁让我又蒙起同样的感想：

“如果有一天，
全世界都因为不了解而误会我，
大家都不可谅解我，
或是有人从中重伤我，
诬蔑我，
陷害我...
会有人愿意永远相信我，
永远与我站在同一阵线上,
永远守护我吗？”

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
3:39 PM

♥

that's how the society works...
survival of the fittest....
well,
a word from him...
and boomz...
all is gone...
no matter how well or how hard you did previously,
nobody really cares...
or at least,
to him,
a single mistake is all that matter....

well well well,
his doing,
taught me the cruelty of the society...
telling me that,
this world is no fairytale...

but,
i made a little vow...
one day,
just one day...
he will realise how wrong he was then...
i want him to learn the word
"regretful"...

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
12:48 PM

♥ Monday, March 15, 2010

ohmygosh...
i always forgot my appetite is small...
order a bowl of wanton noodle and a cup of ice milk tea...
and now i feel bloated...
filled to the brim and i feel like throwing after out...
any slight food's smell is gonna trigger my "vomit button"
=XX

and while lunching with my colleague,
i get to now more celebrity's gossip...
and some are actually "first hand" news worr...
XD

it all started with recent jack neo's affair...
like me,
steph and grace felt that jack is not the only one at fault...
we felt that wendy(the 1 involved) is partly to be blame too...
i mean,
it takes 2 hands to clap right?!?
so yes,
jack is at fault for "seducing" her with temptation(if what everyone says is true),
but if she isn't dat materialistic,
and had stood more firmly to the ground,
nbody could have waivered her,
then this would not have happened...
hmmm...

den they say the other girl,
Le Xuan (who stood up and disclosed that jack had also tried tempting her too previously,
but she didnt succumb etc.),
is actully trying to make herself known to public...
in order to get notice and famous overnight...
instead of what ppl think as "bravery act to speak up for victims"...
for that,
i got no comment,
on what purpose or agenda she has for standing up speaking out...
hmmmm...

since this issue is touched on,
1 of my colleague bao liao dat 1 of our local famous, talented singer is actually a flirt too!!!
according to her,
her fren met MKK at a club,
and because the fren is rather pretty,
so MKK approached her ask her to "sleep" with him!!!
it's like so OHMYGOSH kinda shocking news can!!!
i always think he look decent,
with his talents in instrument playing, song composings etc,
make me admired him even more...
but,
his moral value turned out to be as disappointing as jack neo's...
hmmmm...

i guess,
many things and people really cannot be judged by the cover
=XX

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
2:16 PM

♥

Read an interesting article with headline reading:
"Weight Watchers says eat at McDonald's to lose weight"!!!
LOL
interested???
check out this link to find out more!!! =))
http://www.naturalnews.com/028372_Weight_Watchers_McDonalds.html

~~was kinda affected to know that i'm not in your BFF list...~~
~~because i might not be up to ur standard academically???~~
~~perhaps i felt inferior which led me to this conclusion...~~
~~perhaps i feel insecure...~~
~~maybe if i were to leave,~~
~~our friendship will leave too...~~
hmmmm...
=((

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
10:12 AM

♥ Wednesday, March 10, 2010

tell me i am pro!!! =))
haha

today morning,
went to the atm machine to withdraw money...
and guess what?
the machine is on,
but bUT BUT,
the screeen is totally BLACK!!!
which mean,
when you put in your card,
the machine will says, "Welcome to POSB"...
but you cant see a single thing being displayed on the screen!!!
so the lazy me,
didnt want to walk to the other end...
tried to recall what are the procedures i did before when withdrawing(so i'm practically pressing the machine buttons based on my memory)...
and i MANAGE to do a CASH WITHDRAWAL!!!
muahahaha...

and there was s lady queueing behind for her turn...
i tink she will be quite shock when she see the screen...
then she sure either thinking,
"how that girl withdraw money???AMAZING!!!"
OR,
"how did that girl manage to spoil the screen after withdrawing???@#$%^%"
LOL

but anw,
i'm just pro...
and all thanks to my previous shopaholic-out-of-cash-so-keep-withdrawing-money experience!!!
no wonder ppl say,
"Practice make perfect."
so true!!!
LOL XD

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
9:18 AM

♥ Tuesday, March 9, 2010

caught in a dilemma...
should i pursue my dream and go oversea or should i not???
i know i've been waiting for this day for so so long...
and i've missed many chances previously to pursue my other dreams...
given my grades,
i could have stayed in singapore...
but this time round they didnt insist their way,
it is like for once they let me decide for myself!!! =))

However,
i am not too sure if i have the courage to leave everything here behind and go after my dream???
it will be at least four years before i will be back...
what if i feel home-sick???
what if i miss my family???
what if i feel like a stranger to my family when i'm back???
what if my sister needs me???
what if friends i cherish starts to forget me???
what if they start to distance from me???
will i be able to cope with all these???

i know it sounded silly...
perhaps,
i'm just not xiao1 sa3...
maybe eventually,
i will be back to square one...
LOL =XX

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
9:36 PM

♥ Tuesday, March 2, 2010

OHMYGOSH...
got a HANDSOME Caucasian came into my office today...
for meeting with my company's marketing associate...
i thght only me thght so,
but when my colleague came into the office(from toilet),
she stood in front of my reception counter,
and ask me "dat person, who juz came in handsome right?"
hohohoho =DD

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
11:33 AM

♥ Monday, March 1, 2010

How dumb and blur can i get???

went to the toilet just now,
brought the office's mailbox key along,
thinking that i'll go down and get the mail after visiting the toilet...
so when i went in,
i out the key on top of a box,
beside the toilet bowl,
and when i'm done,
i saw the key and thght to myself,
this time round i'll rmb to take the key and not forget it like what happened to my hp...
den i went to the basin to wash my hand,
den dry my hand and throw the tissue into the bin...
so when i happily wanna go out and go get mail,
to my horror,
i realise the key was GONE!!!
like OHMYGOSH can!!!

i'm so frantically searching it high and low in the toilet,
recalling where did i misplace it...
did i throw it in tgt with the tissue???
and so,
i dig into the bin for the key(i know is super disgusting but yupp)...
dig out all the tissue(luckily only 3 pieces inside)...
open them out,
but found NOTHING!!!

i went back into the cubicle,
thinking maybe i left it inside again???
but NOTHING!!!
and i look at the toilet bowl,
OHMYGOSH...
did i flush it down???
DIE!!!

den assuring myself,
i wont be dat blur,
i went to the basin,
thinking, "did i accidentally wash it down the hole???"
but den,
quite impossible,
cos the holes are too small for the key to fit in!!!

den where the hell did the key gone???
i'm really really scare and panic!!!
so i search the whole toilet again (use look into the bin etc.)...
and i go to the basin and look again,
and realise,
IT HAD BEEN LYING ON THE TOP OF THE BASIN'S TOP!!!
*roll eye ball*
*faint* @_@

it camouflage itself so well dat,
i can't see it during my search until then!!!
i know i'm super duper blur...
but still,
it's a relieve that i didnt flush it down the toilet bowl!!!
LOL

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
4:58 PM

♥

Something to reflect on:

Was on the way back to office from lunch,
and while waiting for the traffic light to turn green,
i feel unbearable to be exposed to the sun...
and i suddenly rmb the old granny i saw juz now,
standing under the hot scorching sun,
selling packets and packets of tissue papers,
hmmm.....
i tink she's selling at 3 packets for $1...
let say if 60 people buy from her per day,
she'll be earning $60,
and that's equivalent to the daily pay of most temp admin staffs now...

but have we ever give it a thght before?
while admin staffs get to sit in the office,
enjoy the air-con,
she's out there,
standing under the inhuman heat,
selling tissue papers...
if every dollars and cents are paid to her accordingly,
den yes,
we cant comment much,
cos every work nature and environment is different...

However,
what if,
she only gets to get 30%(or even less) of what she earned everyday,
while the mastermind behind,
gets to get 70%(or more) of that,
while juz sit in an air con room,
relax and enjoy life,
wont you find it infuriating and inhuman of them?!?

haiz,
i dunno...
i've read and heard this kind of stuffs ongoing in our very own society...
sometimes i really wonder,
where are their conscience???
lets us juz hope all these kinda scourge will disappear one fine day!!!
=))

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
1:17 PM