Pictures Fade.... but you wont'

♥ Monday, March 19, 2007

time flies man...school start tmr for me le...haiz...sianzzzzzz =_=
i rmb dat initially i did nt intend to go for e 3-mth course juz for e sake of slackin, playin n outing...but eventually i m stuck w work...n b4 i had e chence to play, i have to go back to sch le...how i envious e poly students hu can start their term at april...o.O
i wanna to be in SP...y cant i???...haiz...i dunno if i will regret sacrificing my dream n ideal for my love ones...but i only know, dat's e only thing dat i can do so as nt to 'contribute' to their already heavy burden...i know it's tough to raise 3...but, well...shall nt brood bout it le...
like it or not, i m stuck in there le...from tmr onwards, i shall start my daily sch-life routine again= wake up 5.30am(previously in sec, i wake up 6.15am k!!!-.-),prepare, den take car(if nt clash w my sis's timing)/bus to sch... :/
i hate it man!!! :(
but shall learn to like it n love it...

p/s: y cant e government introduce a system where we can study fr pre-school to university, without changin any sch but juz stay in 1 sach...den we will nt hav to start all over again, e.g adaptin to new environment etc. ...den we can dun part w our frens but at e same time noe more new frens...*juz how i wish...

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
11:06 PM

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it's hurt when someone u believe in, lied to u...
it's hurt when ur fren betrayed u...
well, i dun exactly said she betrayed...well, she has her choice open to hu she wanna to befriend...but y muz it be 'e other 1'???...probably was e other 1 took initiative, but muz she accept when she knew dat e other 1 hurt me deeply???...i guess i cant exactly blame her...cos dat's me n e other 1 problems...haizzz...

sudden feel of loneliness...
everyone seems to be leavin me...
my frens...
my trusted ones...
i suddenly started to miss someone...
e one dat will alwaes be by my side when i m down...
n only e one dat truely understand me...
but y did u chose to left when i needed u???
WHY???
u said u would be by my side all e time,
so y nt now?
she...den u...hu's next?

i guess i really had to learn to be independent...
i dun wanna to be hurt again...
n i had decided,
from today onwards, i will leave e unhappy me behind n start afresh...
i promise...
u all will get back e CHEERY, JOVIAL, HAPPY-GO-LUCKY me again...
sooon....... =_=

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
1:22 AM

♥ Friday, March 16, 2007

princess-angel goin to drop back to ‘凡间’了...lol...turnin back to a normal high sch gal, goin to be independent and NO MORE 'fairy-tale' life le...juz becos i m tOO HEALTHY...jok...y would anyone dun wanna be healthy?...lol...but if let me choose, i would rather be e 1, who gt spinal-crooked problem...den i can alwaes live in my 'fairy-tale' world...w so much care n love...juz like a princess angel!!! =/

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
10:04 PM

♥ Thursday, March 15, 2007

i m such a tortise today...reached le dun dare to go in juz becos I M LATE!!!...well, cos today dad took his car for 'servicing' den i had to take bus...bad time management...plus took all e WRONG buses...in e end LATE...late for 45min...n today 1st time meetin...so in e end though i reached destination, i didnt hav e courage to go in!...TORTISE! TORTISE! TORTISE!...yup...'scolding' myself!...haiz...alwaes tell my frens ‘迟到好过没到!’...yet 我自己也没做到!...TORTISE!!! x_x

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
10:23 PM

♥ Wednesday, March 14, 2007

today on e way to tp fr sp, i heard wenyi's blog song...den after some others, i heard jason's blog song...such coincidence right???...lol...
my‘老毛病’又犯了...early in e morning i already feel sth is nt right w my eyes le...den in e afternoon(until now), i watched '1 litre of tears', den was cryin so much dat my eyes now really hurt...really cannot tahan le...they r sooo damn painful till i feel nauseous...feel lyk vomitting now...haizzzzzz...hu can save me fr e pain n make it go away forever??? *help :((

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
10:44 PM

♥ Tuesday, March 13, 2007

boringggggggggggg...nothing beta to do=ROT!!!...lol...but plssss..no more workin..:X
today gt rejected by e better 1...so now they dun need to keep hopin le...lol...hav to stick to e other 1....it's beta than nothing ma, dat mux be wat they thght...n since they had decided y still bother to keep askin me to 'compare'...i surely lyk e 1 i hav alwaes wanna to go...n STOP askin me to compare n decide since u already had decided for ME...haizzzz -_-
n i would lyk to emphasize again...有的必有失...now dat i got sth(though it's nt wat i had wished for all along)...n i bound to lost e other wish...i haven gt a call fr them...n e orientation camp(迎新会）will commence on 15 march...dat's mean dat my hope for becomin a 通讯员is DASHED!!!...haiz..how can god be so cruel to grant a wish dat had nt been mine all along but take away sth which i really longed for???..W.H.Y????? x_x

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
11:23 PM

♥ Monday, March 12, 2007

champagne wor...=_^

haha...today ‘开香槟’for no reason la...even if gt, it's juz becos they r happy dat i can go to where they had wanna me to go...but still nt content with 1...now still wanna to hope for a better 1...haiz...dat's human nature= greedy!...yup...lol..well, tink i really had to succumb to fate man..haiz..if i richer jiu hao le..can do wat i lyk..choose where to study...dun need to consider so much...but at least i m sensible gal...haha...well, dun tink too much le...tink le oso wont 实现..lol o.O

n i tink e '无名天使3D'ending is kind of crappy la...lol =D

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
11:22 PM

♥ Sunday, March 11, 2007

蔡旻佑-- 我可以
寄(情) 没有地址得信
这样得情绪有种距离
你放著谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你得背景有我爱你~
我可以陪你去看星星不用再多说明我就要和你在一起
我不想又再ㄧ次和你分离
我多麼想每一次的美丽是因为你

OH MY GOSH...dat 蔡旻佑 [我可以] MV is really nice...at 1st i thght is typical '守护天使'kind of mv...but..wow..it's nice man...yup..juz suit my taste...lol..but i'm sure some of u will tink it's okok la...cos someone juz simply likes complicated love story...haha...go catch it n decide if it's nice or nt urself ba...but i juz like it!!!^^

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
11:42 PM

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guess where am i???...

#clue 1:

this place gt 'rear' fishes....*sooo cute...

#clue 2:

it oso gt 'rear' prawns n lobster...

猜到了吗??? lol.. ^_=

lol...i nt in aquarium hor...haha...well, yesterday after interview, went to e 'Fairprice Xtra' in amk hub...newly opened...quite a no. of cheap stuffs...haha...den my parents shop lyk as if we in m'sia...a whole trolley full of stuffs...*exagerate a little la...haha...yup..but dis new 'fairprice xtra' seem to be copyin 'Giant'...gt sell alot of other stuffs...fr electronics to clothing, shoes n personal care products etc...
normally i only see live crabs in ntuc...but in there still gt live fishes n prawns etc...e fishes look really cute man..den i 忍不住便take a few photos...i tink e shoppers there muz be tinkin i muz hav come from 乡下的.. o.O ..
after shoppin...kana stuck in carpark...cos dunno y e detector cant detect my dad's cashcard...den e 'barrier' juz wont open...den e attendance came to our assitance...help us open...den my father drove off after thanking him...but he forgt to insert his cashcard dis time round!...hence, 3.5-4 hr of parkin= free!!!...lol... -.-'''

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
5:26 PM

♥ Saturday, March 10, 2007

*vroom vroom...on the way to SPH

reached...*nervous nervous o_O...

*yeah ^^...finally over...*relieved*

hello, dun i look n sound lyk a SINGAPOREAN???today went SPH for e 通讯员 interview n a total of 3 ppl asked me e same qns:'你是新加坡人吗？'haiz -_-'''...well, reached bout 2.30pm..5 min earlier den reporting time...*surprising to reach early wor...lol...den juz sit down e person jiu asked for e 2.30-2.45pm batch to gather to go for interview..on e way, i was tokin to my new fren den her 2nd qns is '你是新加坡人吗？'...-.-'''...den reached 2nd flr, 点完名后，就又很快地被叫进去for interview le...e 2 person(1 gal 1 guy) hu bring me to e interviewer rm asked me 1st:'u r now in sec wat???' den when i told them dat i noe is '高一'后,e gal commented:'huh?你高一长这个样子ar?'(i short n cute cannot meh???...hee)...den e guy was lyk 'u dun sooo bad leh...' den her 2nd qns was'你是新加坡人吗？'.. o.O ..den reached e rm...luckily e 2 interviewers(yu neng n yao yao) i sort of noe them(becos of e 文化营i went last yr...but they dunno me la..lol)...but still very nervous...den they were bth sooo surprise dat there's such cca as 'chinese opera', existed!(still wanna me to sing 1 para...but obviously i nv la...haha)...lol...den after i told them dat only some sch gt 'opera' as a cca...den yao yao asked me e 2nd qns was oso '你是新加坡人吗？'...3rd times of e day!!!...so can i conclude dat i DON'T SOUND LIKE a singaporean???..hence i would lyk to clarify here dat '请别怀疑了，我是土生土长，道道地地的新加坡人!!!.. ._.''' ..lols...after dat tey still gt ask me lots of other qns...lyk 'wat you lyk to write about normally'(i anyhow crap saein dat i lyk to write 校园故事...though i normally is write about any type of story i lyk...),'prefer leadership-kind-of training e.g撰稿，筹备etc. or 写稿的training?'(i tink for awhile..cos he（yu neng) sae cannot bth...den i chose e latter but regret almst immediately, cos i noe i prefer e first 1 much much more..-_+...n he oso seem quite disappointed dat i chose e latter...)...blah blah blah...finally last qns 'noein dat u 3 mths no sch, if u were do a write-up bout these 3 mths, wat would u write?'(den i sae would write bout my experience bout workin as a childcare teacher, with some '暴料'n e change fr schoolin to workin...)...den they sae ’好了，谢谢你。',typical closing statement la...n i left e room...which i den 碰到dat guy dat brought me to e rm n he asked for my name again(which i oso dunno for wat???)...

conclusion: i tink i did not perform as well during e interview...n now,e only thing i can do is cross my finger n hope for e best outcome le!!!...*good luck gal!^^ ...lol :)

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
11:44 PM

♥ Thursday, March 8, 2007

~*i will alwaes stand by ur side n wait for u..
wait for e day dat u final realize my exitance..
i m willin to exchange all my joy for ur smile..
n protect u from all sorrow.. ~
i really can juz stand by ur side n wait for u..
wait for e day dat u finally realize my exitance..
even if my existance means nothing to u afterall..
i m still willin to give u all my luv *~

today saw a 蛮帅的男孩...gt look, gt brain= nt bad nt bad, can consider wor ^_=!...lols...he oso seem to hav 好感in me wor...but, dun feel lyk 谈-ing 恋爱 so early leh(i noe mst of u tink nt early le la...)but, nt mentally prepared to 'settle down' so young...i mean, maybe i m still too young to decide wats 'love' all about(esp after dat day when i had a girls' talk w my elder sis...)...plus i oso dun lyk e feelin if were to break up eventually...well, i m rather 'fairytale' afterall...i mean, i lyk e 'happily ever after' kind of endin...so wanna to hav BGR only when bth r really each other 'The One'kind of 缘分...*smilex* ^^
n today changed blog song le...i really so madly in love w Hana Kimi...n i lyk all it's soundtrack songs...all e lyrics sooo meaningful la...juz how i wish such nice 爱情故事can happen on me...haha...

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
8:32 PM

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怎么办哦怎么办，我现在紧张的心都快要跳出来了(usin e SHE 的‘怎么办’的tune)！！！...lol...but i really very e nervous leh!!...吸气呼气，吸气呼气...but no use leh, e heart still 'b bog b bog'得跳着...juz hope later audition will be alright man!...no accident pop up plssssssssssssss!!!=_+

8.17pm:
consecutively danced for 2 days...now 全身酸痛了!...muz be old le!!!...lol...really ache head to toes...haha...serve me right la, hu ask me 没有dance lesson 就 dun dance at all...but sometime still will do some warm up la....but now even snneeze oso cannot too 大动做...cos e stomach muscle really cannot tahan o.O...

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
1:47 PM

♥ Wednesday, March 7, 2007

wow...so long nv dance till sweat le...shiok man...haha...9 mth nv touch dance le, den today went back to NC and dance e whole afternoon...really very 爽！...tink i really love dance alot...it seems to be part of me, n it juz make me sooo happy to dance!!!...danced for 10 yrs le...dun wanna to juz stop lyk dat...i will cont de...
...cos i'm lovin it(haha....mac's ad)...^^

p/s:will dance well for my audition tmr de...n i'm determined to do it...*no 'stage' fright plssssssssssss*...lol =)

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
11:02 PM

♥ Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Finally really understand n 体验到什么叫着“有得必有失”！today sth shockin pop up which made me rather diappointed but later in e night i recieved news which really brightened up my day...haha...dat's good right???
shall share them with u...
1st of all...aiya, nt happy 1 dun say la, lets skip to e 2nd news...
2nd, the shop auntie called me up n told me that she managed to help me find the bag which i m lookin for for a long long time ago...well, this can be consider as a 'neuture' news, cos i m happy dat finally it is gonna to be mine le, but on the other hand, i had to spent my hard-earned money again!...lol...
3rd, this the 1 dat made me really happy...which is that my 校园报导for the 早报学生通讯员got thru e 1st round of 'auditioning'!...juz now when e person called me up shi, i was still wondering shd i pick up dis no id call?...but eventually i still picked it up at e last sec...haha, guess dat's wat u call ‘天意’...woohoo...well, i rmb dat day i merely rush it thru on e last day of submittion(which as 23feb..on my burthdae)n do alot of last minute of work...den rushed to SPH n do some last minute touch up in e car(very 糟糕right?)...n when i submit my work at e reception shi, i didnt even write e add n 'to whom' on e envelop...can u imagine how pathetic n inferior my 作品muz have looked lyk as compared to e others???...but i guess as one says: nv judge a book by its cover...haha...i guess i juz have the 'inside'!...haha...bhb...but seriously i tink i m lucky to have scripe thru!...ai ya u all wont understand how excited i m de la...cos u all dunno how many times hav i missed this opportunity, n finally i gt to submit my 1st piece n so lucky 就被 called up for interview le...*happy happy*

well,忙了一天我都还没冲凉呢！haha..so dirty hor...lol...kk, gtg le...bb^^

p/s:wish me good luck for my interview on coming Sat, 2.45pm(but hav to report by 2.35pm) at SPH, k? *GOODＬＵＣＫ* ^_^

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
11:17 PM

♥ Monday, March 5, 2007

woohoo...today is my last day of work in 'Bubblesland Playhouse'...actually i only decided to work till end feb...but den dat day my senior teacher asked me to stay for a few more days, workin half day(5hrs...initially is 9.5 hr)...so since i will be gettin my 'postin result' tmr, so decided to work till today...den FULLSTOP...lol^^
Initially, i alwaes fantasize workin-life as sth really interestin n well, maybe a little fantastic...n it muz be a joy to recieve my 1st pay...but, it turned out dat i really is too fairytale...or rather, is naive...i rmb dat my 1st wk there is ok..esp when i get to meet someone of e same age as me, n oso waitin for her result, workin there...so life wasn't to boring...juz dat, a little freedom is sacrificed...esp when my frens r plannin outin but i cannot be included cos had to work!...at such time, i really feel lyk quittin(but is partly wanna more freedom n partly becos of e 'stess')...well, i think i still behave lyk n think lyk a child...juz look at e short-term fun...n becos of e 'to stay or to leave' issue, i had some heated arguements w my mum... but eventually, i still listened to her(afterall, i m still a obedient daughter..lol)...
Though freedom is sacrificed, i still gained sth in return...which is overcomin my phobia...i rmb since young, i really cannot tolerate e sight of ppl vomittin(esp e stench)....it make me feel sick n eventually i will be 'influenced' n throw out together w them...but dat day, when 1 of e nursery kid vomitted IN FRONT OF ME, i actually managed to help clear up without 'joinin her'...i dont noe how but i juz succeed...*1 clap for myself*...lol...so i guess, i m overcomin my phobia slowly, little by little, bits by bits...
If u were to ask me if i gt any 舍不得，我只能说，其实我自己也不懂！...initially i thght i would be glad than happy to leave e 'toleratin'n tirin workin life...esp when i thgt of e thght dat i can nt wake up so early in e morning n slp till 太阳晒到屁股了！LOL...but when i thght of leavin my dearies n babies...n noein dat they too miss me, i actually gt sort of sad?...ya...at e moment 'sad' do e job of descrbin my feelin...aiya, so all is very contradictin...只要是人，一定都会有心情交加的时候的！
But no matter now is happy or sad, i respect my decision n dat's final dat i had left!...LOL...but i gt promise them dat i will go back n visit them when i m free...而我深信我会兑现我对他们的诺言的！yes, i will!...haha^^...

`you'll never fade... won't you?
Last moment...
6:40 PM